This is the last page of the series Candy’s last letter to Albert. Merci beaucoup, Antlay! ❤❤ Here Candy wrote to Albert that she had the diary, which was mainly about Terry, right beside her, but it hadn’t been opened. That is, although she had brought it back to Pony’s Home from Lakewood, she hadn’t turned a page. Apparently, she remembered what she had written, but the fact that she didn’t touch it signifies her resolve not to go back to her past. Note that she sounded matter-of-fact, not at all sad or bitter about it, which is consistent with her tone in her unsent letter to Terry that I mentioned in Part 5.
The way Candy ended this letter indicates that she was indeed happy and content with Albert; she even thanked her parents for abandoning her at Pony’s Home so that she could meet him. Of course she meant she could meet her prince (on Pony’s Hill), not her “adoptive father” (since he had explicitly told her he disliked this fact, as discussed in Overwhelmed with emotions (Part 2))! What’s more, Candy had already moved back to Pony’s Home for a long time by then. Whether she was an adopted daughter or not no longer bothered her.
Overall, Candy wasn’t interested to revisit her “past” (diary) whatsoever, and there is absolutely no hint that she was hoping someone in New York would return to her one day. 😁 To reinforce the notion that she lived in “the present”, she wrote that “now is my happiness”. Put yourself in Albert’s shoes, how would you have reacted to Candy’s words? She wasn’t flirting, was she? That’s the reason why Candy predicted another sleepless night 😆 … This is in essence a love letter, not to mention that she ended this letter “with love and gratitude”. I’ve written about this in different posts already, but in short, the word love, 愛(ai), is not to be taken lightly and casually. It’s a word that conveys total commitment and deep devotion to another. Please bear in mind that the word 愛(ai) in Japanese culture is a very strong word, and many people would rather show their 愛(ai) by actions than say it out loud. Therefore, it took lots of courage for Candy to use it to end her letter to Albert. She must have felt his love for her, so it’s her declaration of love to him as well, no doubt about it. ❤❤❤❤